“unforgettable and deeply loved” 10×20 on canvas
a sweet someone said to me recently, “i see your light.” my heart sank with tenderness. she gets it. she gets me. she understands that with all the cracks, there is light, too. our lightness within is not only our own personal divinity, but a collective divinity, too. when we show up and be who we are. when we ask for what we want and nurture our spirits. when we live whole and true and messy and free, then we begin to release all that lightness into the world and we allow the lightness and goodness of others people and experiences to enter our hearts. then we’re all walking around in the world with bright energy as we tackle the everyday to-do list or deeper matters of the heart. before he passed away, john’s uncle roy used to tell me that inside my own heart is a light. when we peel away the layers of stress and confusion and worry and fear, there it is. he believed the light we hold within our hearts is our own divinity of everything that is perfect and true. when we begin to see ourselves clearly, without the layers of muck, we are most in touch with what is divine. i’ll never forget uncle roy. what a treasure he was to me. he is, as this painting is titled, deeply loved and unforgettable. he taught me that all i will ever need is already within. my light is my sweetest companion and with me always, even when it gets a bit cloudy. it’s always there.
uncle roy with john, 2004, at the ww2 memorial, washington dc
As always, this is a great post. I remember distinctly when I realized that shining your light involved being light. I went through this whole thought process about how to literally lighten up. I finally decided that when you are light and open, you can really wrestle with the struggles of what is really important to you. You can literally feel the weight on your body and then the relief of lightness again once you are past it. It’s like you feel yourself growing and changing.
What a treasure, both Uncle Roy and your post. I am going to seek my own little light this weekend. xo
kelly, did you know that faaaar away in south africa, is this stalkery woman who comes to your e-house on the world wide web (world wide indeed!) almost every day, and peeps into the windows of your soul… how freakishly wonderful is that?
i found your blog through donna downey’s and i share her awed admiration of you.
thank you for letting us share your amazing talent, and giving us just a little moment of beauty every day.
Thanks for sharing this Kelly – it was just what I needed to hear today.
*hugs* Kelly Rae. Blessings come when we speak from our hearts the words that others are longing to hear.
You will always draw to you exactly whom and what you need in any given moment. Nothing is by chance.
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Blessings to those who can help us remember our light. Perfect.
sigh… a beautifully written reminder… thank you for sharing that K x
Your post is beautiful, Kelly, and the photo of uncle is just precious.
As are you. You are a bit of sunshine.
xo Rella
OMG, Kelly,
I just sent you an e-mail about my “cracks” and then I read this post. “Synchronistic” seems too mild a word. I’m crying with the overwhelming reminder that the Universe is mindful of me (and all of us) and that even in my pain, there are beacons of light all around (like you) to reflect the light I have within that I have temporarily forgotten about.
I want to sit with this for a few…
thank you. thank you thank you.