I am feeling much, much better. I spent the day with my freinds Becky and Roxanna yesterday. We did much talking over tea (and a last minute trip to anthropologie to shop the sales. i swear, i’m addicted). They are such sweet girls. They loved on me all day long, giving me the support and encouragement I needed. After twenty minutes with them i felt more of myself, less conflicted. Roxanna gave me a book called 1000 Places to Visit Before You Die and inscribed it with “You are a wonderfully awesome freind. Even when you can’t travel you can always dream.” We then got all sappy and told one another how happy we were to have one another as friends. Roxanna reminds me of an excited little girl when she tells stories. Her eyes widen and her smile is enormous and she tells you every detail and you can just see her excitement. I can’t help but smile too with anticipation of what she’s going to say next. It was a great connection with the girls today, a hopeful feeling. It made my day. I’m a lucky girl.
John left today to go surfing on the coast. He’ll be back tomorrow, but I already miss him. i’ll miss snuggling tonite and his goodnite kiss. I will try not to do my usual and worry about him while he’s gone. Worry that he’ll be eaten by a shark. Or driven off the road. Or robbed while he’s sleeping in his tent. I have such a worry filled imagination sometimes. My friend Clare and I bond over this very issue as she’s a worryer too. I swear it’s better than years before.