i’ve been keeping a very big secret for weeks. and man, it’s been a hard one to keep. but i’m so thrilled to finally announce what so many of you have suspected for weeks. yes, we are pregnant!!!!
i can hardly believe i’m making this announcement, that we are going to parents, that my heart is on its way to a whole new existence. truly, i am almost without words. we are beyond words, beyond description, beyond, beyond, beyond.
it’s the reason i’ve been soooo sick for so long. it’s the reason my blog has lacked its umph these last many weeks. and it’s the reason my emotions have widened deep and long. as we round out this first trimester, my spirit feels like its been doing gymnastics of crazy happy highs, to extreme fatigue, to endless sickness, to awe, to unexpected tears, to love, back to extreme sick. it’s been a roller coaster to say the least. and now i have sooo much sympathy for pregnant women and all the craziness (physical + emotional) that happen during that first and somewhat brutal trimester. wow.
and still, my heart leaps at the thought of this adventure with john. we can hardly wrap our heads around it. it feels so, so big.
my best moments have been shared ones – when we called friends and family to share the news. when john and i dream out loud (endless). when our midwife smiled wide and showed us a very strong heartbeat. when my friends call to check in on me and tell me that all of this is normal and expected. when my mom and sister send small gifts through the mail. and finally now, when i can share the news with all of you.
this is a dream come true. i can hardly believe it!