my head is spinning with what i want to say…
i want to say that i was invited to teach in australia this week and how unbelievable that felt. i want to say that i said yes, but after initial happy dances and then more careful soul consideration, i said no. i want to say that i’m likely crazy for making this decision but that i’m learning to follow my heart and my heart continues to ask, “what is it you really want to do?” and the answer is this: i want to teach, but only inside a collaborative effort with my creative friends (such as our italy trip coming up this fall). my heart is also telling me this: outside of teaching project oriented classes, i want to consider writing my heart out into words and then delivering those words perhaps in speaking opportunities, perhaps facilitating heart and soul conversations and discussions with other creative women. i want to write my story but even more, i want to tell my story which feels wonderfully personal and universal all at once – how any of us can truly and honestly follow our creative bliss into a real and true existence. i know the words and the speaking would be tremendously terrifying for me but this idea sounds frightening in a good way. i’d say it’s mondo beyondo. big dream. of course i want to keep creating, too – i’m about to move into a new studio space with a couple girls and i couldn’t be more excited about it – i’m really curious if i’ll be more productive having a creative space outside of my living space (i’m thinking so).
back to australia…i’m not sure about the rest of you but sometimes i really struggle with diciphering whether or not i’m resisting something because im simply afraid of it or if i just don’t want to do it because my heart is somewhere else. this is where the soul listening comes in. i absolutely celebrated the invitation – what an honor. maybe one day i’ll make it there. they are amazing people (thank you guys, if you’re out there, for your support)!
in other news…i have been slowly going thru all the boxes that arrived this week from the publisher. they are full of the book’s actual artwork – i was nervous about seeing it all again (it’s been awhile), but the memories are flooding in from 2007 when i spent so many evenings up until 1am (sometimes 3am) writing and painting for this book. what an experience. i hope you guys love the artwork inside this book as much as i do. it’s all work that has never been seen before and made specifically for the book. i want to say a special, and HUGE thank you to judy wise, swirly, mati, stephanie, jennifer, dj, and laurie for each contributing amazing, amazing work to this book – you will be blown away by what they did. i can’t wait to show you!
and can i just say that i went to my first ever professional soccer game this week and guess who was there…so cool.
