(d.r.e.a.m.e.r. – sold)
i’m all over the place over here….in a really funny, awkward, strange place. things are changing rapidly and the truth is is that i’m having a hard time keeping up. i’m trying to keep my cool by asking for help, reaching out to my friends for support, doubling the hours of my creative assistant (who i adore – i need to share a photo of her soon), and convincing myself that i’ve got a good plan to make it to the other side of this growth spurt.
it’s so strange for me to consider all that has happened in my life the past few months (book launch, licensing launch, a big move, etc). i am so grateful. but sometimes i also feel totally shell shocked and lost in the momentum of it all. my heart wants to touch down in a way that feels solid and joyful every single day. but every single day i’m behind, losing ground, and simply not able to keep up. and the guilt – what a force that is.
so yes, that’s where i am this week: stumbling my way through, trying to have compassion for my life in progress, and allowing the pressure + anxiety to slip away one permission at a time. i’m working on a plan to make it all manageable but i know it will take time. and maybe i should just throw manageable out the window and consider accepting the haphazard/craziness of it all and lean in – sometimes that’s the best solution. it can be so hard to discern what’s best sometimes, can’t it?
in the mix of it all, i’ve been working on a bunch of goodness that has me excited to the bones – it’s all in the behind the scenes stage but i gotta say, it feels like i’m birthing something big and good and bright even if at this exact moment if feels more like overwhelm. i know this is all a part of it. that struggle and friction are mixed in with brightness and joy. that we have the capacity to hold all of these parts. and that we can be fragmented, patchworked, and broken to pieces, yet still remain 100% whole.
ps – totally thrilled to be an honorary shutter sister today. check it out
Hi, I'm Kelly Rae Roberts!
Before I picked up my first paintbrush at the age of 30, I was a medical social worker. I followed my whispers and started playing with paint and everything changed.
Now I’m a full-time artist, author and Possibilitarian, who helps women explore and nourish their creative souls.
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