we are making our way over here. slooowly we are catching our breath. we’re loving True, and leaning into our new life. it all feels like being cracked open. so much gratitude.
i have never in my entire life felt so much emotion. i feel very in tune, very alive, and embracing the vulnerability of what it means to be so attached.there was a moment when gina took True downstairs for a couple of hours so that john and i could get some rest upstairs. he was 6 days old and we had not once been separated from him. although she was just taking him downstairs, i bawled my eyes out as i watched her walk away. it was then that i knew i was attached, and cracked wide open to love and all that it is bringing to our new family.
i am growing. john and i are growing. we are learning and loving deep and wide. i’m surrendering to it in ways that leave me feeling more lifted up, more joyful than i’ve ever felt yet totally and utterly exhausted by the emotional and physical component, too. it’s so strange, this territory, how it has me opened up to new love yet insanely terrified all at once. i suppose this is what happens when you realize how much you have to lose.
it feels like i’ve lived a whole entire lifetime in just 10 days. i’m so grateful for all of it. and 100% changed.
and did i mention how insanely adorable and cute True is? he is. oh yes indeed.
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