i’ve been suffering through my very first sinus infection ever. now i fully understand the words “my head feels as if it’s going to explode from all the pressure.” truly, i can feel the pressure in my head, my ears, my teeth. it’s been a solid week of it with a different symptom everyday. and now, well, i’m a bit tuckered out.
i’ve also been feeling incredibly restless. i can’t put my finger on it, but i’m trying to give it a name. the anxious dreams have returned and that old familiar complaint of not having a balance in my life has returned. it’s a constant here. the trying and the negotiating with myself and the pushing and pulling of needs and wants. i’m exhausted by my own thoughts. they just don’t seem to want to rest. even in my sleep, i’m making plans and being task-oriented. when really in my real life, and in my dream life, i’d like to give the endless self analysis a rest.
i did wear my yellow shoes today. and that made me feel better.