sometimes my world feels small and lacking perspective. at the same time everything feels significant and important. the contradictions are everywhere, often leaving me bewildered, amused, and questioning.
today, the questions are lingering in the air as i pack my bags for ohio. i leave tomorrow for the book photoshoot, for a week that i know will be spectacular once i get there, but today, in this moment, feels scary (nervous) as hell. who do i think i am? did they pick the right girl to write this book? am i creative enough? inspired enough? good enough? will anyone care?
the tears arrived this morning as i was pouring my tea…not a heaving spill, just a small one… but a significant few with the knowing that i’m about to embark on my own into a week and world of personal hopes and expectations. in between the questions exists a sure certainty of strength and significance. i know this is important. i feel a part of something huge and wonderful, but i also know that i’m just a part of a collective-ness and connected-ness. this knowing brings great comfort and allows for moments, in between my doubt and worry, of calm and confidence. i just want to do my best and for my best to be good enough to celebrate. it feels the same in life, doesn’t it? today, as i get ready for the week that has finally arrived after months and months of waiting, it all feels amplified.
so, i am off. coming with me are the questions, the hopes, the dreams, the expectations, the moments of clarity and release, the paints, the brushes, the messiness of creating. also coming is my brand new token of all things in me that are strong and superhero, made and blessed by my new friend.
thank you, world, for all of it.