this morning when my alarm went off i had a very clear and immediate internal dialogue with myself: “today, today i’m going to take notice. i’m going to practice, if i must, to be grateful, to find my own path back to simple abundance. it starts today.” it’s funny how we can find ourselves just a tad off track, and then it sort of snowballs into a place of complete unfamiliarity where you don’t recognize anything, including bits of yourself.
today was a day of practice for me. i took the camera everywhere, including my routine morning walk with bella and into san fran on my green bike. i stopped to notice, to capture the moment, the details. surprisingly, i found myself wanting to walk and ride further, to see what other treasures i might find. it was a gentle exercise on remembrance.
i also met mati and christine at cafe gratitude in the mission today. we ordered dishes with names like “I AM ABUNDANT” and “I AM REFRESHED” and “I AM SUCCULENT” and each time we ordered something, our server would repeat the phrase to us (you ARE succulent, you ARE abundant, etc). pretty cool. it was a great place to go just hours after having my internal morning thoughts. in their bathroom was a painting with the words “where i put my attention creates my experience.” so true. another message from the universe….in a bathroom of all places.
it was also pure delight to sit and cozy up with my art friends and talk about life, about dreams, about upcoming weddings, birthdays, books. these two are true and real and honest and sharers of their lives. love it.
i love that today felt like the awakening i knew was coming. i hope to continue the new practice of taking my camera on everyday excursions. i have a feeling it will remind me to capture and remember the details that i tend to notice anyway, but forget too quickly.
and this sums up my thoughts exactly (taken from the book my friend sent me recently. i love it when someone sends you something that you needed, though they likely didn’t even realize just how perfect it would be for you, so thank you friend).
julia cameron from the sand of paper