not even a terrible cold and a black eye (complete with a bloody gash from the iron falling out of the closet and onto my left eye . i cried like a baby when it happened [which surprised me]. thank goodness john was home to gently put a bag of frozen peas on my face and tell me to breathe and that it would all be ok) have softened my feelings upon returning home from an extra-ordinary experience.
these retreats, these gatherings of people just like me, have been the most affirming and heartening experiences of my life. and that just feels huge. i don’t know if it’s just the time in my life, or the feeling of really being in the midst of dream living, or what, but it all feels out of the realm of real life in a way that feels good and odd all at once. i’m wondering if i’m finally starting to believe that perhaps all of this is permanent. these feelings of bliss, of community, of a life of creating. i have very distinct memories as a child when i realized that not all of life is tragic. when the shimmers of life began to arrive, i took notice. and it feels a bit like that now. i’m taking notice. and part of me can’t believe i have found myself where i am now. and the beautiful thing is that i really did find myself along the way here. it’s hard to describe, but it feels like a life force is with me in all of this, guiding me, working with me, being with me, showing me the way. a very special person once described holy as being the divine light within the center of our beings, our hearts, after all the layers of envy, greed, fear, anxiety, etc have been peeled away. i love this idea and think of it often. but i digress.
i am in love with stephanie lee’s jewelry and sculptures. the above necklaces spoke to me. yes they did. had to have them. i had the joy of meeting her at artfest and she is just delightful and as talented as could be. we will be collaborating on a special project coming up soon and i couldn’t be happier about it.
as i sit here, sneezing every so often, itchy eyes, sniffling nose, bruised eye, aching arthritic hips and knees (hereditary), i feel like i am somewhat physically falling a part! but on the inside, i am beaming and healed.