I’ve been thinking so much about the unfolding we do in our lives. The unravelling. The unlearning. It requires a certain openness, and immense amounts of trust to simply allow the pieces to fall where they may, no? Yet the magic is waiting for us in those moments when we’re we’re willing to let go, even just a little bit. I am learning that falling into a place of allowance is incredibly peaceful.
I’m not going to lie. The better part of last year was a huge learning period year for me, one of transition, burn out, and uncertainty. I deeply underestimated the stress of moving homes, even if it was a dream come true. I also underestimated the impact of moving studios and being displaced, work wise, for about 9 months. In the midst of all of that, I had some significant shake ups in my biz life – nothing bad, but it still required a lot of change, and building something new. For a good solid amount of time, I was either burnt out, overwhelmed, or disappointed that I wasn’t finding enough time or inspiration to produce a lot of new content, creatively.
Looking back, I can see how it was a time for me to learn the hard lessons of how to unhook from all the rules I set for myself and just simply be, allowing the natural unfolding of what was to come. Although I wasn’t necessarily creating or accomplishing super tangible things, I WAS doing a lot of internal work, and making slow, steady steps toward building a new foundation on which to live, play, work, and parent. GOOD STUFF.
Nichole calls it the “fertile void” – the feeling like nothing is happening, but actually everything is happening and brewing underneath, things that are beyond our knowing or comprehension. YES. I can see how last year was exactly that. And now here I am, many months later, in recognition that those months were about my learning to trust, to allow the unfolding of what to come. And what has come is peace, inspiration, and true personal sense of ease. I’m also in full trust for the next unfolding, whatever that may be.
So, yes. Here’s to allowing the unfolding, friends. Hard, but such good personal work in service of our deeper purpose.