i’ve felt better these last couple of days. sometimes it just takes a really hard day or two to get myself moving in the right direction and to make a change, however small it may be. it also helps to get out and spend some time with friends, new and old. garrett was in town for a day and we had a nice dinner together at a greek restaurant i’ve been wanting to try. it couldn’t have come at a better time. lots of snuggling with john, and bella, too. and i made another new friend today through a new friend i met last week. i love how this happens. how you meet someone, then you meet their someones and before you know it, you have a community. i love community.
our life in oakland is so completely different from our life in portland that i’m still adjusting and sometimes homesick, not just for the city of portland, but for a different life completely. i miss hiking on a regular basis, weekend trips to the coast, camping, walks in the city, familiar parks and restaurants. i miss my old job and the familiar commute of getting there and having lunch with my work friends. i feel less active here and i spend more time alone than i ever have. of course, these things can easily change. and that’s what i’m going to try, with real intention, to do these next several weeks.
it’s odd how life or a particular mood can take shape over the course of several days. i’m a sensitive girl. if i wake up having had a bad dream, it’s hard for me to immediately shake the feelings i had in my dream, and before i know it, i’m feeling off. weird. i did, however, have an incredible dream last nite that had me laughing and giggling so hard that i woke myself up. it’s been months since this has happened, and when i finally came to, i was smiling for real, not just in my dreams.