a collection of recent favorite moments:
on saturday, on a morning when i was tumbling through a bit of melancholy, i arrived to the mailbox to find three “just thinking of you” cards from friends. my spirits lifted immediately with this thought: i am loved.
having dinner with my dear friend mati and scheming up an insanely huge dream/collaboration that we are totally going for. throughout the entire evening i thought: i heart this girl and i love possibility.
chatting on the phone with this woman i’ve admired forever. i quickly learned that after an hour on the phone with her, you feel like you can conquer the world. she is hope and spirit and kindness, this woman.
seeing my man (and the ginormous hug he greeted me with) after a week apart. we were able to squeeze in a lot of really good conversation, thoughts, meals together, and even a movie before he had to leave again.
meeting today with a physical therapist who, after hearing my story and knowing that i can’t afford her, insists on treating me anyway. i can’t tell you how hard this is for me – to take something, a gift, from someone who can potentially offer me wellness. i feel blessed and full of hope that perhaps soon i will lose the numbness in my leg that i’ve been carrying around now for almost two solid years – a numbness that completely restricts any sort of brisk walking (think crossing the street quickly) let alone running -the very thing that transformed my life not too long ago. so, yes i am. i am hopeful for wellness. and thankful for this woman.
forcing myself to eat yogurt mixed with flax seed only to realize that i absolutely loved it. same goes for steel cut oats and blueberries. i’m on a roll. i am completely dedicated, more than i have ever been, to getting my omega 3s, my antioxidants, my vitamin d, and more. between exercise, strengthening, food choices, schedule choices, and sleep, i’m totally noticing the difference. feels refreshingly good.
talking with one of my bffs on the phone. it just another perfect everyday conversation. when we hung up, i thought: damn, i’m lucky.
and finally: settling into the feeling that i’m doing the best i can. no more guilt.