i had the pleasure of meeting andrea a few months ago and spending some time to get to know her a bit. she is a soul that speaks to me. i get her. i get what’s she’s saying. and i love that she is so completely well-rounded in her offerings to the world – in spirit, in creative flow, in writing, in celebration. with that said, i really want to jump in on the mondo beyondo ritual – part one + part two. i know i spoke a bit about 2007 in an earlier post, but i love this idea of celebrating and grieving what has come and gone, and then listing our wildest dreams for 08. so, here goes part one (i’ll post part two tomorrow). feel free to participate over at andrea’s blog, or on your own blog!
1. What do you want to acknowledge yourself for in regard to 2007?(What did you create? What challenges did you face with courage and strength? What promises did you keep to yourself? What brave choices did you make? What are you proud of?)
in 2007, i am most proud of learning to take leaps in directions i once thought were impossible for me. i made brave choices to go for wild creative dreams, like participating in a group gallery show, submitting article + art to national publications, applying to juried shows, and finally, the wildest leap and dream of all: submitting a book proposal, and then writing that book and producing a large amount of art for it, too (likely the hardest thing i’ve ever done).
i am proud of me + john. that we made it thru what was our most challenging year yet. with challenge comes opportunity for growth and understanding. i’m proud of us for always digging deeper. for supporting one another in true excitement and seemingly unending mini-celebrations.
i am proud of my creations. the paintings. the writings. the pushings and pullings of inspiration and feeling like each piece is better than the last. i am proud of starting my creative business, in true earnest, in 2007. it’s been my wildest joy.
through it all, the largest challenge for me was this: finding balance. and acknowledging that perhaps i played a significant role in creating the opportunities that came my way instead of explaining it away to 100% luck -that i wasn’t just some random girl in the right place at the right time, but that i actually played a part in my own joy and success. i’m not sure why this was a struggle. it just was. but i am proud that i faced this challenge with heart and with an open ear to listen and seek answers and finally learn the lesson of owning my joy. i am learning, now more than ever, that even if luck enters my life, i must be ready for it. and that’s what counts. i suppose in 2007, i was ready for it. and that makes me proud.
2. What is there to grieve about 2007? (What was disappointing? What was scary? What was hard? What can you forgive yourself for?)
i forgive myself for letting any semblance of routine or balance or self-care go. i forgive myself for all the moments of complete overwhelm and lack of sleep and snippy moments with my husband. i also forgive myself for all the unanswered emails and phone calls and for letting a couple of my dearest friendships (including that of my dear husband) slip from time to time because i was ‘busy.’ i forgive myself the ungraceful adjustments and heartache of moving to a new city. i forgive myself all the hard lessons learned as i stumbled my way thru my first full year of a creative business. i also forgive myself all the amounts of soda-pop i have put into my body – i know my body deserves better!
3. What else do you need to say about the year to declare it complete?
Okay, the next step is to say out loud, “I declare 2007 complete!” How do you feel? If you don’t feel quite right, there might be one more thing to say…2007, you were, hands down, the most productive year i’ve ever had. you were also the most joyous year. the most crazy-unbalanced year. the most full year. thank you for all you gave and taught me. i will take it to 2008 and beyond. i declare you, dear 2007, complete! done! finished! over!
2008 is my year of self-care and balance!