i’ve been feeling incredibly spoiled in my friendships lately. whether it’s my hour (or two) long weekly phone chat with my bff, a sweet handwritten card from a portland pal (thank you, sarah), or a date with my local friends, i walk away from these experiences with a sense of renewed energy, a bit of inspired hope. i’ve always been on the cusp of introvert/extrovert. sometimes i feel renewal in times spent alone and sometimes i get it in times spent with dear ones. it’s 50/50. lately, the balance has been perfect. and i feel incredibly lucky to have such wonderful people in my life who totally get the idea that as women, we are often all things in one: that we can still be beautifully strong/talented/grounded while also being indecisive/worried/conflicted – that we can hold the space for one another to be all that we are and hope to become. it all feels very real, true, and honest.
i can’t believe it, but i think i’m totally smitten with california. life here, especially lately with all the warmth and sunshine, feels easy – even when there are so many deadlines, so much work to be done. i still have all my same complaints about this place (crowded, traffic, crime, insincerity, etc) but i’m learning to fully embrace the spirit, the greatness that exists here, and how my life has unfolded in spectacular ways in this place.
along with all the goodness of late, i’ve been having that self defeating thought of who do i think i am? more specifically, who do i think i am to be enjoying life so much, to have the people in my life that i do, to be doing what i love to do? oh my. it creeps in every now and again. somewhere in my life, i must have learned/accepted that life should be hard, that it shouldn’t be all about enjoyment and fulfillment, unless of course you’ve traveled through something painful. i’m learning that i deserve every ounce of joy that i receive, that i don’t have to explain it away, that everything doesn’t have to be hard. i like this easy feeling….feels natural.
i’m continuing the blissed out california experience and am heading out for a few days of camping along the coast. there will be lots of eating, exploring, scrabble by the campfire, and perhaps i’ll put on my wetsuit and surf (if the waves are nice and petite)!
i’ll return with stories, and photos. oh yes, i’ve been working on a bit of a collection of sorts and will be listing these goodies on etsy when i return in a few days – totally excited about this.
have a great week, friends!