a small bit of good conversation with john over sushi, and i feel better. i’m such a processor. i need to talk out my feelings, my struggles, my self. it helps me find my way as i stumble over my words, my story.
i realize that all of this – the learning, the joys, the frustrations, the ins and outs of moods, the inspirations, the dull moments, all of it, is just a part of the journey. i’m trying to honor all of that while trying to find my little piece of balance in the midst of some very huge life transitions.
sometimes i have to remind myself that i just started all of this artmaking this year! and just like your wildest love affair, it has given my life sheer thrill and inspiration, but it has also turned it upside down – and i mean that in the best way possible. when you don’t expect something to happen in your life, like finding love, and then it happens, everything changes. but in the midst of my everything changing, we moved! so there has been more change within the cirlce of a bigger change. and i’m in the middle of the whirling circle, just trying to find my way, while holding onto every morsel of brightness that it has given to me. but i’m also trying to acknowledge from time to time that all of this has its bumpy spots. it’s all beautifully meaningful in the long run, in the end. this is what it’s all about.