what a gift.

what a gift.

everything feels precious in ways that feel intensely grateful, and free, and happy and even a little like a longing, like a bittersweet longing. whenever he looks at me, precious. whenever sleep arrives, precious. whenever feelings are spilled in honest tears,...
due date

due date

taken moments ago. i didn’t want this day to pass without recognition. i know that official “due dates” don’t really mean anything, but truely and in every way, we are ready. let’s get this party started, ok? because i don’t think...
on men and men.

on men and men.

(found in portland) we are in the major homestretch of our house renovation. i am spending hours upon hours managing this project, keeping everything on task, and running around to homies (home depot) and countless other places (tile, lighting, flooring, painting, and...
love is center

love is center

i can slowly feel myself returning to my center. last nite as i was snuggling up against john, all i could think was this is what’s most important, right here, this love. it’s been mighty stressful over here on a few fronts and not being settled in a home...
gratitude

gratitude

earlier this week, i went out to the oregon coast with john and his pal (and the dogs) for a day trip. they surfed and i took photos. and soaked up the sunshine. and took a nap. and wrote the following gratitude list: totally thankful for: – watching my husband...
denial is totally serving me at the moment

denial is totally serving me at the moment

i love this photo so much. taken with the iphone. and i love our bus so much, too. this morning i had a total meltdown as we were rushing around to leave the oregon coast and check out of our hotel. i was trying to frantically check and respond to emails before we hit...
this is totally happening.

this is totally happening.

here i am last week on my way to meet up with some old friends (16wks). it’s grown a bit since this and man am i surprised by the popping out. it seemed to happen overnite. it’s exhilarating. i haven’t had to buy any maternity clothes yet except the...
today

today

today we are celebrating 11 years of togetherness. as with all unions, we’ve learned so much, grown so much, and have traveled deep and wide to this place of commitment and friendship. sometimes it takes a lot of work. sometimes it feels so easy. at the end of...