i am sitting her atop my bed looking out onto the many windows in front of me. it’s dusk and the smallness of the light is still coming in with a gentle warmth. i am feeling very, very peaceful – something that has been working it’s way thru the trenches of my body and soul these last couple of weeks and finally, finally, seems to have made its appearance. i’m hoping it will stay for awhile, make a home.
i arrived home from artfest exhausted and sick. john says i’ve had ‘a touch’ of the flu this week, and i wish to never have ‘the touch’ ever again. it’s been a week of body aches, uncomfortable sleep, weakness, and all sorts of ailments i’ll spare the details of here. but i will say that being gone for a week coupled with this week, with all its yuck aside, has given me the gift of perspective and distance.
in between my sneezing, coughing, and medicated naps, i’ve been making joyous plans for when i feel better – the things i want to change, the things i don’t. i’ve enjoyed the time away from the computer, from work, from self-imposed pressure. i love how feeling ill gives us perspective. about what really matters. about how we really want to live. for me, the message came thru loud and clear this week: focus on what feels very real in your life.
i was a little off track, but now, now i got it. thank you, sickness. thank you, wellness.
ps – please head over to my friend jen’s blog and see what’s been happening over there. your spirits will be so, so lifted.