One of my lifelong fears has been my distrust of abundance. I often struggle with thoughts like: It can all go away in a split second. You don’t have what it takes to sustain this. The shoe is going to drop. I know these fearful beliefs rose out of memories from my younger years, when tragedy and loss taught me to distrust joy and prosperity. For as long as I can remember I have struggled with thinking that the world is not a safe place.
Over the years I’ve learned that when small thinking starts to creep in, it’s fear that is trying to pull me out of the present moment, which is the moment that is always inviting me to step forward into my light, to shine, and to celebrate the privilege of being alive. I can choose to let this fear pull me off course, or I can hold on to this breath, this present moment truth, and be anchored here in gratitude. It may not be easy, but still, I do have the power to choose it.
Painful memories and life experiences can take years to shake. When we think we’re ‘over’ something, there it comes again, trying to cloud our vision and stifle our thoughts. It’s simply a part of being a human, which is wonderfully complex. We are tender and fierce. We are soft and strong. We are fragile and courageous. We are beautiful paradox.
When we hold onto these truths, we remember that our vulnerabilities are actually spaces for our greatest power and our brightest light to come through. We can step into those vulnerable places and offer compassion and comfort to the younger selves who experienced the birth of our biggest fears and traumas. We can walk through those memories without ever losing sight of the limitless power of our wings to soar, and soar even higher, into our bright and beautiful lives. This is soul work, our sacred work, our heart’s work.
Here’s to our soaring. Now and always.