i think getting the contents of your heart out into the world is good. it’s healing. and it’s honest. i was chatting with clare on the phone the other day and we were talking about how putting yourself out there in the world, whether with your words, your art, or your life, can be unsettling at times. it’s exposing and revealing and honest and vulnerable all at once. and when you happen to be in a time of struggle, all of those things are amplified and can feel uneasy. this has been a bit of a struggle for me personally. when things are good with me i have no problem standing on the mountain top, in full view of the world to see, to judge, to pass on by. but when i’m down, when i’m overwhelmed, it’s a bit daunting really, to continue to be open, to share myself.
this past week has been hard, but i’ve moved past it. with art to help heal. with conversations with a couple of close friends. with quiet. with rest. with john. the truth is is that we all have up and down weeks. sometimes i don’t give myself permission to feel down. resisting it, i often feel guilty, which is a world of unrelenting and unforgiving revolving doors.
today, i spent the entire day in the studio, listening to music (can’t get enough of iron & wine lately), eating cookies, and being in the that blissful place of creating. john and i had a great conversation this morning. i love good conversations that set the mood for the entire day and sometimes all week. i live for these conversations.
the persistent cold/sinus infection is finally starting to clear thanks to chinese herbs and acupuncture. i’ve continued on my acupuncture journey and i’m happily surprised and relieved that it’s actually working. the migraines are gone. my lactose intolerance is completely gone (by simply taking probiotics to replenish good bacteria in my system that was apparently wiped out by antibiotics a long time ago). and most importantly, with the help of a chiropractor, my acupuncturist has finally gotten to the bottom of a pesky and mysterious leg injury. so, i’m on the mend and should hopefully start running again in the next month or so. i consider these small miracles in my life, and i just would have never guessed it would be chinese medicine that would have been the key. who knew? i’m counting it as big fat oakland based blessing!
other oakland blessings:
our friends kelly and erik. i love those kids.
that i can walk to the post office, Peets Tea, work, gym, farmer’s market, and to the Bart
that they are building a Whole Foods one block away
easy access to san francisco
oh yes, before i forget, please check out Alena Hennessy’s new book Alter This!: Radical Ideas for Transforming Books Into Art. I have 3 different art projects featured in 3 different chapters in this great book geared towards teaching kids about altered art. so if you’re a momma, and your little ones are into art, check it out!
also, i’ve listed several new prints on my etsy, including these: