(hello, courage –> original available here
do you ever feel completely tiny and lost inside the big huge world, both online and off? that’s how i’ve been feeling lately. there are so many resources, people, exciting offerings, and inspiration out there that i’ve started to feel a bit swallowed up by the interchanging orbits of people and places.
when i was writing Taking Flight
, i remember having several moments of panic: does what i have to say really matter? is any of this content good? who am i to stand tall and offer inspiration?
i’d make the mistake of perusing the websites of accomplished artists and writers which only left me feeling defeated and small. it seemed everywhere i turned someone else was offering beautiful art, stories, instruction, books, and inspiration. how was i going to measure up? how could i make an impact without getting lost inside everything else that everybody else was offering? i learned early on in the creating and writing process to stay clear of the websites and blogs and books that triggered me – and it helped. tremendously. without having an endless measuring stick in my consciousness, i was happier, healthier, more productive, and way more authentic in my own voice. and i was able to write a book close to my heart and without feeling tiny. i learned to use my own voice, my own experiences, my own stories, and my own art. and that, turns out, was enough.
these days, as i’m heavy into writing and preparing my ecourses
, i’m right back where i was in the early phases of writing my book. the gremlins have arrived. the over thinking, the over analyzing have arrived. and the being triggered by all the great people, material, and ecourses that are already out there has arrived. it all makes my head scream with jumble and doubt. so, i’m thick into the idea of repeating what worked when i was writing Taking Flight
: stepping away from all the amazing blogs, websites, and books so that i can feel like what i’m offering , when i’m offering, and how i’m offering will be enough. otherwise, i’m paralyzed and can’t seem to get anything done that feels like me, my voice, my vision.
so, that’s where i’m at. this ecourse content is so meaty, it feels like i’m writing a book, not just in length but in importance to me. i want it to be good, valuable, and inspiring to my students, but i also want it designed so that it’s a good fit for me, my work flow, and my life. it’s going to be good. and it’s been a pretty remarkable exercise in courage. hello, courage. thank you, for shaking up my life. you are good like that 🙂