i’ve been working, thinking, and generally being a bit moody. the highlights have been spent painting and writing. i love finishing a project. it’s the best feeling, like discovering a forgotten christmas present under the tree. i’m not sleeping well – finding myself just an inch or so away from awake-ness all night long. frustrating. i have also found myself in that weird space and dilemma of knowing what i need to change in my life but not quite having the motivation to take action. also frustrating! and on a side note, i find it fascinating that i’m always in middle of the road on any personality test i’ve ever been given. always on the cusp on everything. i wonder what that is all about.
and what’s worse is that i haven’t had that feeling of missing portland in awhile. it’s as if i’m betraying a good friend by even admitting it, but it’s true. i suppose i’ve acclimated.
oh, and i learned how to play poker this week. we played that song by kenny rogers, the gambler, earlier in the day and sang it out loud in our apt while doing silly dances. felt good. i’ve always loved that song. reminds me of being 9 years old.