(sidewalk crack beauty)
I have been thinking a lot lately about how much I love doing all the meaningless things that make up my day. I love all the randomness of running errands, of bumping into previous co-workers, of watching people buy building materials at home depot. I wonder who that person is in the car next to me at the stoplight. Do they have a family? Are they sad, happy? I love observing all the young families in the grocery store and wonder how they’re holding up, or how they’re celebrating. I love how the sunlight is finally showing itself in portland and how the light filters through our extremely dusty basement windows.
As I make my way out of burnout, my eyes are opening to the world. As I’m out and about in my car, on my walks, I often want to say outloud, “Hello, World! You. Are. Awesome.” I have been feeling so cocooned inside really long work days for so long, that it feels really really good to be cracked open and woken up. There’s a lot of hormonal emotional highs and lows at the moment but I’m thankful for the tenderness.
I’m reminded of this little snippet I wrote a few weeks ago for my ecourse: We all have layers of tenderness, dreams waiting to be born, and we all have courage waiting inside the pockets of our brokenness. When we acknowledge and embrace all of these vulnerabilities, we pave the way for an expansion of spirit, for an opportunity of growth, for rebirth, for really seeing ourselves. And most importantly, for creating the experiences we most need.
That’s where I’m at these days. I’m practicing courage, embracing vulnerability, and allowing the light to enter all my cracks.